sorry..

All the goals looked more and more far-fetched
i really once thought national top 8 will sort of be a breeze for us.
but i don't think so now.
and i felt that national top 8 is my ultimate goal as a captain.
reach it, i passed.
fail it, i failed.
i've done my best.
encouraging, motivating, encouraging, motivating.
and in the end i'm still the one facing the stress with that irritating message.
i'm the one making promises to jiaolian
and trying to do what i can to get everyone to do it
and feeling guilty when it failed.
Sorry jiaolian:(

3 trainings are so freaking little.
it's so little that i don't dare to think about it.
but i'm not feeling the sense of urgency.

Never imagined we'll end like this.